My random 20

Okay, my friends did these, peer pressure....

1. I have never entered a haunted house in my life and NEVER will! I am terrified of my own shadow and to know for certain that someone will jump out at me is to much for my heart to handle.

2. I LOVE TO BE ALONE! I know that sounds crazy considering how much I thrive on attention, but I really love sitting in any empty house sometimes or just walking around a store all by myself.

3. Phillip and I do not find each other funny, but other people find us each seperately funny. Phillip says that I don't laugh at him on purpose and I feel he does the same to me.

4. It is hard for me to let things go. Arguments, friendships, loved ones, unanswered questions.... I may act like I have forgotten all about it, but it is always in the back of my mind. I wish that was something that I could change because it causes me more pain than it is worth sometimes.

5. My longest friendship has been for 21 years. I have been best friends with my friend Emily since I was 7 and we are still going strong and we could not be more different.

6. I know I am annoying sometimes. I think people don't think I realize this about myself, but I am well aware. It is part of the package, if you can't handle it then rethink this purchase.

7. My first sister died at birth. There are lots of times I wonder what it would have been like to have her here and if she and I would have had a good relationship and if I would have even been born had she lived. I know God knew best.

8. I am surprised by my mothering abilities. I really am so scattered brained that some days I wonder how they got fed and dressed and bathed, but somehow with God's help I keep it all together and I think I do a pretty good job!

9. I am an idea thief. I swear I come up with few things on my own. I steal paint colors, decorating ideas, blogg ideas, everything. I wish I was more creative.

10. I love to see people fall down. It is horrible, I know this, but I love it. Even small children as long as they don't get hurt, is extremely funny to me. I am sick!

11. I secretly think Phillip is more attractive than me. He does not read this blog and I would never tell him, but I wonder if people think he is cuter than me? Is that weird? Is he? Don't tell me, I am scared of the answer. It is a double edged sword.

12. I never sat in Santa's lap as a child. The fear was to much for me to handle and I never got the nerve.

13. Phillip is truely my perfect match. He loves me for just me. He knows I always forget and remembers, He knows I am loud and he is quiet, He knows I am scared and he is brave, He knows I am scared of the dark so he waits up as late as is needed with a light on, He knows I am not perfect and still thinks I am. I just know there is nobody else in this world who can see me with those eyes and I feel the same way about him.

14. I hate my nostrils, they are oddly shaped.

15. My dad is a preacher who rides a Harley and has tons of tattoos!

16. I love movies from the 80's!

17.I still remember all the lyrics to the theme song from Jem! You know babysitter by day and rock star by night, pink hair, batteling the misfitz!

18. I always have good intentions, though they most of the time don't go as planned.

19. I have no more ideas for random facts, see lack of creativity!

The last day of third grade:(

Today was Isaac's last day of third grade and his last day to be in Elementary School. It is so hard to believe. It seems just yesterday it was his first day of K and now once again I am bawling my eyes out as I walk out of the school. I'm not really sure why the tears began to flow, but as soon as I hugged his teacher and thanked her for the year they just came flooding out. I guess I am just overwhelmed by the amount of support that the teachers at Valley have given us over the past years and how much they truley care about Isaac and help him strive to succeed. Plus, it does get me that my baby boy is growing up and we had a baby shower for his teacher today also. I can remember being like her, just waiting for the first to arrive and all of those feelings a new mom-to-be has and now my baby boy is almost as big as I am and starting intermediate school, it was too much for one day!

A birthday that will truly last forver!

Excuse my toes!

Friday night was spent celebrating my 28th birthday with my gals! There was food, fun, and tattooing?? I had been wanting to get the Autism puzzle piece symbol for a LONG time and decided that was the night! I had friends around to support me and hold my hand all the way through. I even convinced a few other to join in!?!? I am sure some people don't like tattoos, but for me this puzzle piece is so much more than just something cute to put on my foot. It symbolizes how a situation in our lives went from heartbreak to healing and how proud I am as a mother of an autistic child who has beaten the odds and proven to everyone that he is more than his diagnosis. It is truly a night we will NEVER forget.

Rewind

Have you ever had one of those days that you wish you could just hit rewind on and start it over again. That was today! It was just a wasted day, I got nothing done, I canceled pictures I should have waited on (thanks James Span), and I got really upset with Isaac for something stupid that I should have been more understanding about. Now, I am just really feeling horrible about making a big deal out of it and am wanting to drive to my mom's and give him a hug. I forgot his action figures, which he really depends on having at night and instead of just driving back home and getting them, I complained and told him that he should learn to adjust when he does not have the things he wants and to stop being a baby. It was not fair to say to him. I know how much he depends on them more than anyone. UGH, don't you just feel horrible when you look back on the day and realize that you said something you shouldn't have to your kid. It just really sucks when they are old enough to understand when you are losing patience and then when I was dropping him off he says "I'll miss you tonight Mom".... Okay Lord, I get it, I feel like dirt already I promise.

So this is a reminder to myself to strive to have the same amount of patience with my children that God has for me daily and I know I must drive him crazy.

I am SOOO BEHIND!

Okay over the next few days I am planning on catching this thing up, so be patient. They may be out of order, but you will get the picture!